In My Mind’s Blog

The older I get, I realize that I am getting very sensitive about a lot of things.  For instance, someone intentionally left me out from their mass email messaging.  Should I care?  I did a little, but when I thought about the big picture…I didn’t care about the person who sent the message anyway & I would have done the same thing too with this person… so what’s the deal, right?   

Also, I was making a left turn in a grocery store parking lot yesterday.  It was dark and rainy, there was this woman in her beat up FORD hauling ass.  I was going to make a left and she was coming from my right side.  As I was veering left, I saw her from the corner of my eye so I put on the breaks before turning left….so in essence, I didn’t hit her ugly ass car and there was so much space in between us I wouln’t have been able to hit her anyway.  Although nothing major happened, the bitch had the nerve to stop and do indescent hand gestures towards me and looked like she was screaming her head off inside her car.  This bitch looked like she was in her mid-50’s …she wanted to get out of her car and challenge me to a fight.  I wasn’t scared because if she got out of her car I would run her over with mine.  To make a long story short, another car was coming out from the left so the bitch couldn’t go anywhere and she had no choice but to drive straight.  I thought about this incident, and the point of the matter is that no one got hit or hurt.  But some people can’t get pass the inconvenience they experienced and they dwell on it  instead of moving on.  Hmmmm…..I know I do the same thing sometimes and overanalyze situations and get upset for nothing… but at least I realize that this is something I have to work on so that I don’t get to be an old hag driving a beat up car hauling ass in a parking lot.

The punk rocker you see on my profile is my work friend’s 16 year old daughter, Keeley.  My friend asked me back in November if I could take portraits of Keeley and without any hesitation I said yes.  I haven’t seen the girl since she was 9 years old, so I thought I was going to take sweet, innocent portraits of a teenager…but at yesterday’s meeting I had a little jolt when I saw Keeley walking with her mother in her get-up and mohawk. The first thing I blurted out was how colorful she was (how square can I get, you know?).  My friend was just laughing because she knew they surprised me…good one, I thought…hehehe.  They caught me offguard alright, but looking back at the photos we took yesterday makes me proud of the young lady (excellent model btw) and ofcourse with myself.  Not that I think my photos are perfect, but I just feel like I’ve found myself again.  Between having to take care of a toddler, a husband, a household and working full time, I haven’t really been tinkering with photography for awhile.  I realized that the shoot got my creative juices going and it’s something that I really love doing (taking people’s portraits).  Oh well, We’ll see what the future holds.